Ah!

No more pets for real!  We just spent way too much money on shots for these two kitties!  And they still need to be spayed/neutered/declawed!  Oh my, what have I done?  Ha.  It's a good thing they're so stinkin cute and cuddly.

On to other things, I'm still kinda down today but in different ways.  I'm trying to look up though.  And decide what it is that I really want.  I'll figure it out I'm sure.

Cohen's 4 month WBV is next Tuesday, and while I'm really not excited about more shots, I am excited to know his official height/weight numbers.  He's so long. 

I love my iPhone by the way.  I'm not trying to brag or anything, just thankful for the technology and the money to afford one.  I do recommend them to anyone considering it.

Okay, well, this has been random and I think I'm done.  Have a good weekend everyone!

Eh.

I'm having a down day today.  I guess there's just a lot weighing on my mind.  And with lack of close friends to talk to I suppose it just stays a little heavier on my mind.  It's not a bad day per se.  Nothing happened really to make me down.  It's just another one of those days where I just feel like I'm on standstill waiting to see what happens.  Like I can't move forward yet because of this reason or that.

I really want to clean/organize/declutter our living space.  But, it's pointless if we are going to be moving out fairly soon.  I want to babyproof, but yet again, pointless if we won't be here when Cohen becomes mobile.

I want a friend. (Ha, I sound pathetic.)  A mom friend.

I am ready for Cohen to be a little less dependent.  At least let me put him down for naps occasionally.  I guess I should try more.  (Please, no cry it out advice, I won't have any of that.  I've done the research and crying it out is not for us.  I'll be happy to enlighten you on my reasons why if you'd like, but my decision has been made and I won't be swayed.)  I want to sew.  Or at least be able to wash and change the sheets now instead of having to wait for him to wake up.

I read an article today about "smart" children and their attitudes in life and I think that's got me down.  It talked about when a child is told that they're smart all the time, it pretty much sets them up to be so scared of failure that they don't even try if they can't be great at something from the get-go.  Well, that's me.  The whole article is me.  I am terrified of failing.  I'm a perfectionist.  I lack confidence.  And I seem to be very irritable today. 

Okay, I'm done.  I just needed to vent a little.  Thanks for reading.

Can't imagine

A girl I graduated high school with just lost her little girl to SIDS. I don't even think she was a month old. And her mom died right before she had the baby. I feel so distraught for her... She must be going through all sorts of pain. I wasn't ever really close to her, but man, I wish there was something I could do for her.

Be thankful for every day... even the bad ones.



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I haven't been taking photos lately.  Well, just with my phone.  I need to get on the ball again.  The house also needs to be cleaned and organized and possibly babyproofed but it's hard to have that kind of motivation when we may or may not be living here much longer.  Either way... I just wanna know.  I don't like it being up in the air.  Maybe next month we'll find something out.

Weeeeellllllll, I tried on THE jeans, and they fit! ::cheer:: Still a little tight, but they fit better than before. (No huge muffin top... sorry for the graphics. :P)

I think I may actually venture to a La Leche meeting this coming month.  I'd love to have a like-minded (for the most part anyway) momma friend.  Someone to share similar baby stories good and bad with and not be judged and whatnot.  No one's really critical around us, just maybe can't quite understand and appreciate what we're going through as it's different from what they're used to.  Maybe that doesn't make sense... I feel like I'm just rambling.  Haha!

Ahh well, off to a funeral today.  Cohen's first funeral at just 4 months old.  I suppose that's much easier than having to explain to a toddler about death though. 

Have a good week everyone!!

It's been a while

I haven't really blogged in a long time.  Cohen is 4 months old today!!  I remember this day seeming like it'd be forever away.  But, here it is!  And I'm told he's only gonna grow up even faster. ;) 

Everything has been pretty good here lately.  The usual ups and downs, but nothing spectacular.  I've lost some more weight, and should try on my jeans again and see how they're fitting.  Maybe I'll do that later today. 

Okay, well, I'm off to start my Saturday.  Hope it's a good one for everyone!

Woot!

I got my new iPhone in! It's a lot of fun so far. Not much to say right now. I wonder if I can post pictures too?


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Well, I was gonna post some pictures, but the image box is gone? Maybe it'll be back later.

Oh, I found it... duh!
So, here are some pictures for your viewing pleasure!

 

6.19

 

6.20

 

 

6.21

 

6.22

 

6.23

 

6.24

 

6.25

 

6.26

 

6.27 (my fave!!)

While these aren't wonderful photos technically, they have gotten me back behind the lens and I'm very grateful for that.  Soon I plan to make more "art" photos, I just needed to get my foot back in the door with using my camera and all.  

That's all folks!